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Updates .

2010-07-24T20:03:00.004+08:00

Hi . Im Nisa . Meera's cuz , I'm doing a favour for my cuz in helping her to update her dusty blog now. As she is playing lazy to update . Pantat berat eyk kau . -.-' So I'll do it for her . HAHA . :D Yes , aku da post gambar kau yang jambu ni . haha ! perasan siak kau . *rolleyes*
Okays , school has reopen for like 3 weeks already . Ite CCK is freaking huge & meera's is wearing heels to school everyday . Her dad which is also my uncle had gone a little bit insane or should I say insane already luhh by making her sleep inside her brother's room & her lil brother is like sleeping in her room . Wtf huh ? Her dad says she got too much priviliges already . Haiyoh ! Her dad doesnt allow meera to even sleep at her room . Rabak kan ? Okay , Pakcik aku which is her dad dah giler . Haha ! XD So poor cuz have to endure this shitty thing with her dad . Yes , meera could'nt stop pastering me for chocolate as she feel like having chocolate a few days back . haha ! Da dapat ferroro rocher terus happy . GILER . :D She still have the cheeks to even paster a good handsome friend of mine Shazwan for chocolate . Da sah muke tktao malu . Haha ! Funny ! Meera calls him , Doctor LOVE & baby ? -.- This is some of the funny conversation that happen yesterday after school had ended .

Meera : "Babyyyyyyyyyyy ! I nakkkk chocolateeeeeeee ! "
Shazwan : *GIVING THE WTF LOOK & PRETEND NOT TO HEAR ANYTHING LOOK*
Meera : *pouty face*
Shazwan : *Still giving the wtf look & pretend not to hear anything*
Meera : "OI ! aku nak chocolate luhhhhs !"
Shazwan : "What ? yang ferroro rocher tu aku share duet dgn nisa eli untuk kau luhhs . " *kelip kelip mate at me .
Meera : "BEDEK UHH ! Nisa cakap dier dapat ferrero rocher tu dalam air box dier !"
Shazwan : " HAHAHAHAHA ! Alamak , baru nak main main kan kau . Tk menjadi ! "
Meera : "Aku bilang mama uhhhs !"
Me : *GIVING BOTH OF THEM THE LOOK*

Well , thanks to meera me and shazwan learn a new phrase which is BILANG MAMA UHHS & BABI GULENG . Hahah ! okays cuz , I think Im done updating your blog cause Ive no idea what else to blog about . Please do us a favour and start updating your blog . Don't be a lazy ass can ? haha . I know you got alots of things to blog about okay ? So don't tell me that you don't have anything to blog about if not , Im gonna bitchslap you . Hahaha ! Okay I love you cuz . *hugs & blow kiss* :)

BETTER START UPDATING HOORRRR !
much loves , your pretty lil cute cousin . :P

2010-06-16T20:37:00.001+08:00

Okay, see how much i miss them :(

& holidays just started.

2010-06-07T23:14:00.002+08:00

2010-06-06T20:08:00.002+08:00

Dear Allah,

Pls make him feel better. It hurts me that he's like this.
This is all I'm asking from you.
Amin.

Mira.

2010-06-03T16:32:00.002+08:00

Hello, I'm back. I shouldn't have left this blog to rot, i know :D School is fine, finally got to used to waking up early & the journey to and fro school, I'm not that cranky in the mornings already :D Can't wait to for holidays and can't wait for school to reopen also, cause then we'll be going to school at the new Chua Chu Kang campus already, which I heard is quite huge :D

Exams gonna be over soon, tmr's the last paper which is OFA which we have don't have to study for, cause I think we should have enough practise already. Yesterday was the stupid BEV paper, it wasn't that difficult like I expected it to be, I may even score an A for it *prays really hard*
Studied really hard for it, like BEV BEV BEV for two whole weeks straight, I study BEV everywhere, in the train, whenever I get free time in school & even on the bed before I go to sleep. So can't wait for teacher to start teaching again T.T

School seems abit dead for this past few days, loadsa of people keep skipping cause everybody's worned out. Plus, some Nitec students already started their holidays, so no more seeing Sebastian in school :( I want my holidays to start like right now, cause after tmr's paper there'll be like no point to come to school already.

Okay, gonna research for the ILT project again, deadline on the 10th -.-
I wanna go for the Global Exchange Program! then we can finally travel instead of just planning a trip for projects -.-

2010-06-02T19:16:00.002+08:00

My heart still feels so heavy, even after 3 weeks.
Even after its confirmed I'm just another girl you used to care about.
I know you dont care anymore.
I feel so disappointed, I didn't expect us to end like this, I didn't expect you to change so fast.
I'll regret blogging this in five mins,
but I miss you so much.

2010-04-27T22:04:00.004+08:00

okay world, meet Christina :D

it's the beginning of the 3rd week of school & I'm very very very tired :(

LAY-TAH ! :D

2010-03-18T01:07:00.006+08:00

Hello ! Before Gee decides to pester me to blog , I think I better blog !

Last Monday , went out to meet Amir Twinney to lepak , & we kept talking bout the same thing over & over again , the common topic lah what else ! hahahaha , & I just found out that even though I'm his twin , he'll carry me & throw me into the bushes if i piss him off ! Okay , almost got thrown into the bushes but then manage to escape ! hahahahaha ! :D Need to meet him like regularly , & meet his girlfriend too ! I'm his twin what ! :D

Last Wednesday went for a job interview at Pahang Street as a tele-marketer with Gee , but due to us not being able to commit till end of April , Ish's motherly manager decided not to hire us , but instead told us to come back when we have our next holiday , so BOO cause for the rest of the month I have nothing to do , & YAY cause the next time we have our holidays , me & Gee can skip down Pahang Street and work :D Besides that , we were freaking late for the interview ! We made an appointment with Lena at 4pm , but we got there later cause we got lost T.T Ish told us the place was near Keypoint - Between Lavender & Bugis , near Arab Street , but we totally misunderstood and thought he was saying that his workplace was at Keypoint ! & he gave us the unit number , #10/11 , and me & Gee being silly , thought that it was on the 10th floor of Keypoint , and thus , roam around there like lost sheeps :( Funny hor , Gee ? Ish & Gee , we shall work together the next time we have our holidays ! :D

Speaking of interviews , I went down to Forever 21 like uhh almost a month ago for an interview , because the person in-charge asked me to , but after I made my way down there , turns out that I have to filled out the application form & wait for them to call me ! Complete waste of time can ? Nobody ever did call me back ! & I didnt even get to have my interview ! & Ooo last Sunday , met up with Ry & Shai and a couple of Ry's friends at Orchard as all of us was interested at working at ShangRi-La Hotel , and had recommendations from Mar . So we walk and walk and walk & then decided upon reaching the hotel that we don't wanna work there , as its too far ! Hahaha wasted efforts ! XD

Tmr , maybe meeting up with old work mates from Seoul Garden , for dinner at Sakura Buffet Downtown East :D Cant wait to meet them , especially Misuari & Siti Hasanah ! Bet we gonna laugh alot , cause Misuari + Amirah = Nonsense !!! Agree Hasanah ? :D So looking forward to see them tmr , cause they're really a bunch of fun , nice , happy people !! :D

Wooo , freaking broke for the rest of the month ! Why ? Bought Boyfie his PS3 as promised ! Although it was a very belated birthday present , its better late than never correct ? So happy that he was happy , he looked like a very excited little boy ! Love it when he's happy , and when he looks like a little boy fussing over his new toy , cause he looks soooooo innocent ! :D But like I expected , the moment we reach home , he went straight to his room , and meddle with his PS3 and forgot bout me ! *pout* He didn't even want to accompany me eat !! BUT , Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs accompanied me while he's busy playing ! Even got into a fight because of my hearing deficiency (according to him - HE WAS MUMBLING !!!! *ANGRY FACE*) / the PS3 cardboard box (according to me) . But I think after that , we learned abit bout how to give & take , yes ? :D I Love You ♥

I'm starting school in less than a month , & I can say I'm not looking forward to it as , I've not been to school for almost 2 years ! :( Abit rusty in the going to school department ! & Also because my school is so far from home , need to wake up extra early for school ! & Amirah = Not an a early riser ! :(

This post lacks content , boo !
Okay Bye , wanna go watch Ponyo On The Cliff By The Sea , again :D
*starts singing Ponyo song*

2010-03-03T23:37:00.003+08:00

Hello ! Okay okay , I'm updating Gee ! :D

Okay I'm no longer working at Seoul Garden , cause of certain problems encountered during work , won't mention anything here just in case :D I definitely miss the people there , people like Yana , Ridhwan , Misuari & his gf , Siti 3 ! Worked especially alot with them , since we're like the ones who's not in school yet ! No more laughing at the dishwasher yeah Mis ? And no more imitating my stupid facial expressions ! Lol , and no more irritating or making the others laugh with the way i laugh ! My laughter's contagious , i tell you ! okay gonna return my uniform soon , so maybe will see some of them :D Miss them already :(

OH ! Boyfie turned 26 last week ! *coughcough*OLD*coughcough*
Dinner date with him at Seoul Garden . Tried to surprise him with his birthday cake / brownie , but didn't manage to ! :( totally forgot he worked in F&B before , so he has loads of experience with this kinda stuffs ! Ended up , I sang him the birthday song myself , which wasn't too bad , but I'll be happier if the surprise worked out ! :( & I'm super proud of myself for putting in effort , so Boyfie has nothing to complain about ! & Also because i think i bought a very pretty cake :D Happy Belated 26th Boyfie , i love you ♥

I caught 'My Name Is Khan' with Ibu a few days back , & it was awesome ! Correct Naqib ? This is seriously a must-watch ! Its very very good movie :D I'll definitely watch it a second time if I'm rich , but I'm not ! So I'm gonna wait for the dvd , gonna make Ibu get it :D

Oh yeah , I got rejected by all 3 polys in applied to , so Ite here i come !

I think this post is very disjointed . The content is messed up & its written in bad english .
I think i forgot how to blog ! Lol okay whatever !
Bye :D

2010-02-01T08:58:00.001+08:00

Happy 13th Boyfie , i love you ♥

2010-01-28T00:07:00.003+08:00

I think I work too hard for the things I know I can't get .

Headed down to Singapore Poly today , even though I know I have no hope in getting into that poly , I went down anyway cause someone from the administrative office called and asked me to send in my supporting documents & also because Mummy keeps saying , 'You wont get the satisfaction of knowing that you tried , if you dont !' , so I went anyway . The school was mothafucking huge i tell you , I got lost just looking for the office when all I had to do was walk straight from the mrt , silly me ! Plus !, the lady in the office was no help at all , I was cracking my brains trying to rmb what course I applied for, and she offered no help at all ! Instead of helping , she told me , if I can't rmb what I applied for , my application won't be send to the right school , and then it won't be considered unless the administration people have the time . What the ? Boleh ker gitu ? okay forget bout that . atleast if Sp , Rp , Nyp♥ reject me , I still have Ite to turn to cause I got accepted to the tourism course , which I intend to transfer to another course at Ite Simei . So whatever lah , come March I'll know whether I'm accepted anywhere . Atleast I tried right ?

Am now missing Boyfie ♥ heaps !, but he's asleep ! :(
I think I'll either head to bed or watch movies online !

Bye :D

2010-01-20T22:49:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I wish ,

That I'm smarter - but I don't get to choose my brain .
That I'm older - but I don't get to choose when I'm born .
That I'm not the oldest child - but I don't get to choose my position in the family .
That my parent's aren't so strict - but I don't get to choose my parents .

I wished i was smarter , so that i didn't have to retake my Os , and still fail stupid maths the second time round . People say Success = 10% intelligence + 90% hard work . Not saying I'm stupid , cause i can say im smart , i passed everything except for stupid maths (FUCK YOU MATHS !) , so i guess the intelligent part is covered . & For the part that states that i have to work hard in order to succeed , i dare say i put in alot of effort , staying up late studying , going for classes & going out for study groups . But why e8 , even after the second try ? yeah i go around telling people jokes that maybe i have to retake maths for another 3 times in order to secure a c5 , but nobody really knows how really crushed & disappointed i was to get the same shitty results after putting in alot of effort , resulting in me wasting a whole year . Yeah , my aunts & uncles can nag at me and tell me I'm stupid for wasting the year , but they should put themselves in my shoes , like how do i really feel ? bak kata pepatah , berat mata memandang , berat lagi bahu memikul . All i wanted was to pass my maths & get into a decent polytechnic course & i cant even do that . how sad right ?

I wished i was older so that then I'll be able to finish everything I have to do faster , & get married and live my life the way i want . So that I dont have to suffer when I get punished when things go wrong . So that I won't get grounded , over every little thing . So that I'm free to do what i want , when i want w/o having to seek permission from anybody .

I wished that i wasn't the oldest child , so that i don't have to be the responsible one , taking care of everything when my parent's not around . So that i don't have to get blamed for everything . So that I'm the one who get pampered by my siblings & parents . So that when anything happens , i dont have to put up a brave and front & keep all my emotions to myself when anything happens , like when my brothers are rude to me or when my parents blame or scold me for things i didnt do , or when atleast i think i dont deserve getting reprimanded for . It's heartwrenching when you don't have anyone to talk to in the family , thats why i lock myself up in my room , to protect myself .

I wished my parents weren't so strict . It's hard to live or be a carefree 17-year old or be friends with people when it's so hard for me to go out . If I compare my life with others , those other lucky teenagers out there got it better than me , they're free to go out wherever & whenever they want , no curfew , no restrictions . But me ? No . Because of my inability to go out whenever I want , no friends of mine ever ask me out anymore . Should this be the way i get to spend my teen life ? I'm not even allowed to wear the clothes I want , its always either too short , too revealing , too tight , too whatever .

Sometimes I wish i can just give up , cause I've run out of patience , I feel so suffocated , like I'm being locked up in prison . Sometimes I just wanna run , but I don't want anybody to worry . I guess I just took everything in my stride , and told myself not to complain , cause other people got it worst than me . Don't tell my parents just want the best for me , I know they do . But you can't blame me when I'm sick & tired of being restricted , not being able to do the things i want . All in all , i should be grateful for the things I have , that my brain is working perfectly fine , that I'm still young and that I don't have to worry about things such as bills or global warming , that I have siblings and that my parents trust me enough to put responsible for eveything , & also that I have parents , unlike orphans , pity them . Yes they care , but sometimes I wish they'll loosen up a tiny bit . I should be grateful & thanks Allah for giving me everything I have , but i guess it's just human nature to want more , to want everything to be perfect - just the way they like it .

I can be here complaining bout everything wrong bout my life , but there could be another teenager out there who'll be wishing & praying to Allah to have whatever i have .
I guess i just need to be grateful .

Happy is He who is content .

Bye :D

2009-12-29T00:20:00.004+08:00

Bold all the things you’ve done in 2009

1. Did something you said you would never do.
2. Paid for someone who said they would pay you back but never did.
3. Lied about where you were.
4. Discovered a new musician.
5. Made something for a friend.
6. Got a new phone.
7. Got a new iPod/Zune/Mp3 player. (Boyfie got me an itouch, does that count?)
8. Watched three or more episodes of Saturday Night Live.
9. Made fun of someone.
10. Created a Tumblr.
11. Flew on a plane for the first time.
12. Spoke in front of 15 people or more.
13. Met someone in real life that you originally met online.
14. Done something illegal.
15. Did your siblings chores for money.
16. Stayed up all night thinking about the worst thing that could possibly happen to later find out that you worried for nothing.
17. Hurt somebody you didn’t mean to hurt.
18. Hugged your mom or dad.
19. Baked.
20. Made a new friend. (friends, rather)
21. Lost a friend.
22. Changed your views on society.
23. Laughed at something that wasn’t funny.
24. Got upset over something that wasn’t a big deal.
25. Had a horrible birthday.
26. Got a Facebook.
27. Deleted your myspace.
28. Cried because you missed old times.
29. Cleaned your room.
30. Have a new found appreciation for someone you never expected to.
31. Told someone you love them and meant it.
32. Told someone you hate them.
33. Screwed something up but didn’t mean to.
34. Received a gift.
35. Gave a gift.
36. Read a book that wasn’t for school.
37. Ate a lollipop.
38. Threw away something by accident.
39. Smoked a cigarette.
40. Ran a mile.
41. Switched schools.
42. Aced a test.
43. Wished you were in the past.
44. Got scared about the future.
45. Got yelled at by your parents.
46. Lost a family member.
47. Saw an old friend.
48. Went to church/synagogue.
49. Hugged a stuffed animal.
50. Said you’re going to make next year better.

I just got back from work, and im very very tired . Dont know how I'm gonna survive working full shift on Thursday , New Year's Eve sia ! uh-oh ! & I'll be working the night shift on Wednesday ! double uh-oh ! I'll be whining to whoever's working on that day , guarantee plus chop ! XD Most probably sleeping over @ Nisa's crib on new year's eve , she wanna countdown with meeee !! how sweet ? she planned it ! :D Btw , i so CANT WAIT for the 1st , New Year's = One Year Anny with Boyfie♥ , YAY ! :D

2009-12-26T19:41:00.004+08:00

I turned 17 almost a week ago , 3 words ; awesomest birthday ever !
Surprise birthday cake at work , got surprised again at 12mn on the dot by Boyfie , & almost got surprised again (Along Girl spoiled the whole thing by asking bout the cake infront of me haha) by the awesome cousins at the movie marathon . Oh , spend time with Boyfie on my birthday too . Got awesome gifts also , thanks Boyfie & Ibu :D Thanks Adlin for the chocs too ! :D
& Not forgetting the people who wished , so glad that loadsa people rmbed me :D
unlike some ... so yeah !

Okay , i have nothing else to blog about , cause im a boring person haha !
Merry Christmas :D

2009-12-05T04:26:00.005+08:00

Finally got to meet Boyfie ♥ after 17 days of torture . Wanted to catch New Moon at 2.15pm but Boyfie being silly , book it online on the wrong date & at the wrong time . Lol , i honestly think Boyfie was half-asleep when he was doing the booking . (heh heh told you I'll blog bout it !) So we ended up watching it at a later timing , so I got no chance to be the bratty , complain queen gf i will never be . Okay the movie is , disappointing (Boyfie heard me said this loadsa times till he got irritated , dont think i dont know !) the book is defo better than the movie . Plus , Jacob Black isn't hot ! I don't like guys with 6pacs , cause im weird that way , and also cause its so ugly pls ! & I dont like guys to be that muscular lah ! Ewww ! Nvmind , need to look forward to Eclipse now .

We headed to Boyfie's after that , and i played Guitar Hero for the first time !
Damn hooked to the game now heh heh ! Awesome day with Boyfie , cause any day with Boyfie is guaranteed to be awesome , cause im with him duh !
& I miss you already :(

Okay i gtg sleep now , so good night :D

2009-11-28T21:58:00.002+08:00

Lol , i have the 'WEEEE ~ IM SO HAPPY *BIG BIG GRIN*' look in both pictures , hahaha !

right Ica ? okay im not in the right mood , to update my blog properly ,
i feel like dying right now btw :(
lol drama queen *rolls eyes* .

2009-11-23T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm updating cause Ryann ask me to hehe !
heh , i finally got a job @ The Coffee Club at Wheelock ,
but i had to reject it cause turns out that they sell pork there ,
and therefore i cant work there , sad :(
great right ? i finally got a job , and then the place not halal , fcuk seh !
okay whatever , gonna pray that one of the many jobs i interviewed for gonna call me back !
okay ciaoz ! :D

2009-11-19T00:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish I'm not that disposable ,
like a kleenex people blow their nose into and throw ,
cause I'm tired of people forgetting about me .
Everybody moves on with their life , with their new friends & their new school ,
and then they forget bout their plain old Ami :(

Sometimes I wonder , why do I still bother to care bout them .
Yeah all of us have our own lives to live , we moved on , but i dont understand why ,
I can be the one who always have time to stop and listen to all your cries ,
but none of you can do that for me ?

Everybody stop pointing your bloody fingers at everyone ,
stop calling each other hypocrites and two-faced bitches ,
cause you'll end up having three fingers pointing back at you .
Everybody do this kinda shit ,
and I'm sick of it .

If this is what they call friendship ,
then I rather not have friends , cause at the end of the day ,
I'll still end up being alone .

Don't make promises , the people i call bestfriends ,
if you dont even bother remembering them .
Just F Off !

2009-11-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

Me & Huda went for Job-Hunting part 2 today , and we're very very very tired .
And now we just have to wait till someone calls us back . Bottomline , we both need a job like really badly cause we're very bored and we have alot of free time till April - if we get into a school , and also because we need money to sustain us until then , and i really have not that much left . Other then that , i think like other girls , im itching to have money in my pockets to go the things i have my eyes on . But thats not so important , i think . Okay i just need something to distract myself so that i wont worry bout my 'O' Level results .

Okay whatever , im very tired , i need to go shower & im off to bed :D

2009-11-14T23:19:00.002+08:00

I did pretty much nothing for the past 3 days , and its kinda depressing :(
lol no I'm not emo-ing and thinking depressing thoughts again , its just depressing that I've been longing for Os to end , and now when it has , i got nothing to do . sedih !
I got so bored i started playing facebook games , and I'm not a big fan of facebook games cause its laggy ,
but now I'm currently playing 3 facebook games , lol pathetic !
okay i really need to go find a job , and i will , this coming Monday , with Huda again .
i don't really have anything to update , cause I've been up to .. nothing lately :(
so take care :)

2009-11-12T00:41:00.002+08:00

Found this on Lynn's blog just now ;

Have you ever felt that feeling whenever you see someone, you freeze and your heart starts to beat so fast and you have to hold on to something so you wouldn't fall? Sometimes when they talk to you, do you utter stupid words and end up embarrassing yourself? It’s not that you want it, but just the presence of that person makes your heart beat faster and slower at the same time. Would you be brave and admit your feelings? What if it’s simply not meant to be, do you give up? Or keep trying and end up with nothing? Well, that’s love. Its irony speaks, but you got to take risks to get answers. When you meet someone and you gradually fall in love with that person, try to express your love to her because every moment you wasted would be equal to tons of regret in the end. Don’t wait until it’s too late to tell someone how much you love, how much you care. Because when they are gone, no matter how loud you shout and cry they won’t hear you anymore.

The love you can’t have lasts the longest, feels the strongest and hurts the most. It’s so hard pretending to be friends with someone special when every time you look at that person it just hurts even more knowing that all you see is ultimately everything that you want but you can’t have. Isn’t it stupid when you say, “no, I don’t love that person anymore.” But still, when the memories are refresh and that person become visible again in your life. You’ll stare and say, “Damn it! Why can’t I forget you?” So each time I see you, I say to myself, “I moved on.” Each time you smile at me, I say to myself, “yeah, we're just friends!” But every time you look at me, I end up saying, “Shit! It’s so hard to pretend!” It’s hard to love someone who is not serious enough. Time would give you chances to talk, chances to be together and chances to share. See how it hurts?! You only have chances, just chances.

A heartbreak isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding. Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling and the most painful thing is no one really hears it except you. You can handle the pain that you feel and make others believe that you can move on. But you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll choose to love. I cried so many times because of a love lost and a love I never really had. I suffered pain worse than dying. But feelings change and there’s one lesson that everybody should learn in time…move on. You can’t finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It’s a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. Learn to appreciate the rainbow after cursing the rain. It’s just like loving again after experiencing pain. Loving someone can’t be proven with just the way you feel, the words you say or the things you give. If you’ve ignored yourself and sacrificed your own happiness for the one you love, you know what love means.

^^^ Isn't this nice ? The next time , I suffer a heartbreak , I promise I'll remember this .
But i really hope i wont ever need to .

& Sufyan promised to call me tomorrow ! Yay-ness :D

2009-11-11T22:23:00.004+08:00

Today was the last day for Os , and im supposed to feel ecstatic that im free from Maths and Science and studying altogether until i enroll into a school next year , but i dont feel that way at all , sedih or what ? I dont feel the expected feeling of the burden being lifted off and i dont know why . Maybe because i still have to worry about results thats gonna be released in almost 2 months . It didnt feel the same like last year , when i could just throw my books aside and start going somewhat crazy , maybe because its my second try and im even more nervous . Okay to summarise , im just scared . What if i dont do well ? :(

On a lighter note , spend 4 hours outside today job-hunting with Huda ! Tiring i tell you , my legs and back hurts really badly now . Badly need someone with a kind heart to give me a massage hahaha ! Of all jobs that i applied for , i really want the barista job at Starbucks ! cause i'll be working with coffee , & i looooooooove coffee , Starbucks's especially ! whatever it is , i did walk around and tried to look for jobs , so Alhamdullilah if i do get one :D After thinking about it , im in no rush to start working cause i wanna have more days to laze around at home ! :D

Okay im tired & hungry .
gonna eat , shower , read abit and off to bed !
Night-night world ! :D

EDITED //

Happy 18th Birthday Nataline ! :D
okay now good night .

2009-11-11T01:03:00.003+08:00

Okay i know i said i dont want to blog again , but then i decided that i want to blog again ,
because i feel that its like so wasted for me to delete away my 3-4year old blog & also because i have itchy fingers wanna start blogging again , im so fickle-minded . Boyfie i put up my archives there <<< see see , dont read back on all my kentalan posts and laugh and tease me after that , i'll bite you ah !

Went out with Boyfie today , yes i really did have fun , even though no ice-cream & no photos ! *pouty dog face* I had fun cause i was with you , & im so grateful for that , i wont ask for more :D after movie , Jennifer's Body which was shitty btw , and brunch (for me atleast , i think) we headed back to Capitol to get back my books from Chris , and coincidently , all the others - Lina , Aslam , Lulu , Fie - came back too cause it was Ah Cheong's last day :( now i dont know where to go find him to ask for Starbucks :( played tap-tap revolution with Lina just now , extremely fun & i won !!, will download it soon ! cant wait cant wait :D

& i should be studying now for the last dreaded paper tmr , but here i am blogging after spending bout an hour changing my blogskin to something simple & sweet yet again . im looking forward to meeting Huda tmr for jobhunting :D should have went out and do that long time ago , cause atleast i know by now i would be employed by some random company already .
ive been to the gym to burn all my fats , but i think its no use if i exercise like crazy , and then go home/out and eat all those fatty food , waste effort only :(

i think im gonna post a wishlist or something soon , yay !

okay i should go study and head to bed soon :D
night-night world !

2009-08-20T03:23:00.001+08:00

http://miramoktar.wordpress.com
okay , i think i'll just put this blog on hold until blogger stops screwing up .
its really annoying btw , and im not such a patient person ,
to keep logging in and out of blogger to discover its still messed-up .
so link me up if you wanna , but dont blame me if i get bored of wordpress and its limited skins ,
and switch back to blogger (when its not screwed up , btw)
love , Ami .

2009-08-11T21:43:00.000+08:00

im currently watching anugerah !
and truth be told , each of Wawan's performance bores me to death .
frankly , he has neither the looks or the voice ,
i have no idea how girls out there can fall head over heels for him .
i seriously dont get it hahaha ! when i first started watching Anugerah ,
the hosts keep mentioning that Wawan was the best , but honestly , Chirul is way better lor !
and it totally sucks that he dont get so much votes D:
Chirul is soooo cute , in case you haven't notice .
and Kunjung , yeah she's good , BUT nobody wants a foreigner to win the competition right ?
lol , you have your KPI in Indonesia , Kunjung ! but if she wins i dont mind , cause her voice is nice :D
but i doubt so as , she doesnt get as much votes as Sarah Aqilah , whos REALLY REALLY awesome !
i really want her to win , cause shes really good !
shes really really good , her voice is like Ziana Zain ! WAAAAAA ~
btw , enough of me crapping bout Anugerah , congrats to whoevers gonna win ,
if any of those die-hard fans of Wawan wanna come spam me , you're welcome to flood my tagboard !

off to wordpress now :D

& blogger is not okay again hahahaha !

2009-08-10T01:24:00.003+08:00

(i badly wanna upload a pic here cause blogger's not being a female dog anymore ,
but i cant find new pics , which shows that ive not camwhored for a v nong-nong time , how sad ?)

ive finally started studying ,
and i totally absorbed two whole chapters into my brain in one night .
okay fine , not a great achievement , but yay me !
atleast i did study , and did the assesment exercise .
i just need to put in that lil wee bit more effort and push myself to study MORE !
heh . i should like you know stop going online and watching movies ,
and do something more productive like reading and sleeping , cause ive not been getting much lately . haha .

& tmr's a stupid public holiday , meaning parent's wont be working = must wake up early !
grr . okay what-evs . look on the bright side , Nisa might be coming tmr ! :D
kay , i really wanna go squeeze maths formulaes into my brain now .

p.s ; i miss the S2L2R girls real bad , Sak especially cause she's been mia-ing since forever .
we should add a C in the S2L2R cause Chloe's there and cause she wrote in the diary too !
*looks at Ry & wriggles eyebrows*

p.p.s ; i totally dig the song on Adlin's blog , cause it used to be my fave last time .

2009-08-08T22:20:00.000+08:00

since blogger's still being a female dog ,
im not gonna bother posting a pic up here , using html codes from photobucket ,
cause im lazy hahaha !
so , Happy 15TH Birthday Fahrul Fahmi !
bitch your 15 not 5 okay ! so you should act like your 15 sometimes and ignore Ayul when hes being idiotic ,
and dont be a cranky bitch all the time , with that >:( look on your face !
and stop screaming at me when i talk to you cause im your sister .
& you dont even bother replying to my msg , you bitch !
buang 5cents jer , hahaha .
hahaha , what kinda birthday wish is this ! haha .
okay happy birthday lah brother .

:D

2009-08-07T05:07:00.000+08:00

Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.

2009-08-06T22:30:00.002+08:00

hahaha , there see ! blogger's being a bitch again !
btw , i should stop getting coffee from starbucks ! (boohoo , i looooove the caramel frappe pls !)
cause according to this survey here on the msn live page (click here !)
coffee from starbucks sucks , and coffee from dunkin' donuts are better .
but since i cant find dunkin' donuts here (i only rmb seeing a dunkin' donuts in jb) , cause im not street-smart , i'll settle for Mc'Cafe ! okay , trust me to be going on and on about coffee after reading survey results !
okay , starbucks & dunkin' donuts , dont sue me ! i have nothing , and these are survey results !
ell-oh-ell (this is lame , the ell-oh-ell thingy btw) !
okay , i shall go bloghopping !

toodles :D
& i wanna know about Monday ! pls Boyfie ? *tries to acts super cute*

2009-08-06T01:30:00.004+08:00

okay ive gone thru my photobucket account twice ,
but i cant still find a decent photo of Adlin & Me .
which is v sad , considering the fact that we used to camwhore alot last time !
okay this post is for her cause of the msg she left at my tagboard , and im crestfallen that she misses my posts instead of me . wthell ? yeah i know blogger's okay now , but i dont know why i dont like blogging , both here and at wordpress , maybe because i dont like blogging altogether or because blogging isnt that fulfilling to me anymore , i dont feel better .
i used to love blogging the crap out , cause last time i actually feel better , i blogged the pressure out ? but i dont think its the same now .
or maybe because , i think nobody understands me . haha !

okay , im feeling whiney and crappy and i feel like smashing and breaking everything breakable in the house . no no , im not just blogging it cause it makes me look intimidating or something ,
i really feel like crap , to the extent i seriously want to do that .

& i cant wait for Ry to come back !

2009-07-28T23:17:00.001+08:00

since blogger's being a fcuked-up bitch , still .
the posting page still looks fugly , and its unappealing to me .
oops sorry the management of blogger , dont sue me , almost all blogger users hate it when this happens .
and im sorry caused ive hopped to wordpress .
and since i think , i'll get fickle again , and changed my url on wordpress , i wont post the url here . lol .
and i think i'll still use blogger when i feel random , cause im silly like that .
oh great , now i have to blogs & a twitter account and i dont tweet that often also !
okay bye .

p.s ; you can google me if ure smart ! (or if you want to!)

2009-07-26T20:29:00.003+08:00

me being negative , thinks i have very slim chance of getting into a school next year . not because i think i'll get lousy grades again this year (read : i think i'll get super sweet grades cause im over-confident like that *sticks tongues out*) , but because i think candidates who apply for school through DAE will not be prioritize first , because obviously they'll give higher priority to those fresh graduates with fantastic grades from secondary schools .
uhhh , sad lah okay !
then again , i might be wrong . i hope im wrong .
*starts praying*

& blogger's still being a bitch .
sometimes , i really contemplate moving to livejournal or wordpress , or stop blogging altogether .
but im not gonna , YET !
:D

2009-07-24T03:59:00.004+08:00

Blogger's being a bitch !

btw , its confirmed . if in 7years i dont get married to Boyfie , or Adlin dont get married to Shazwan , the loser will have to get Starbucks for the winner , and a SWATCH WATCH . did i mentioned Swatch watches are super cute ? haha ! i tried looking for a picture of Adlin & me in my photobucket , but we look so retarded so no need ah .

so thats it , i cant sleep .

& I LOVE YOU !
i really really do .
& i miss you badly too D:

2009-07-20T02:53:00.002+08:00

You never truly love a person ,

until the mere thought of you hurting

that loved one is enough to break your own heart .

2009-07-18T03:56:00.002+08:00

i want ,

loads and loads of caramel frappe .
loads and loads of movies .
loads and loads of time .
and you .

& oh ,

i love you .

2009-07-17T00:13:00.002+08:00

i lack sleep .
*dozes off*

2009-07-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

yesterday when i walking back home with brother from RP , i saw Faizal *kening naik* tried to cabot lari but he saw me already and he started being annoying like this , 'Eh Mira ! dah sombong ah dektu , mataer cine nampak ?' ,and me like always , will say , 'Mane ade sombong ?' and then blablabla . like hello what has the race of my bf got to do with me being arrogant ? and he already know my bf was a chinese like soooo long ago , why mentioned it again so suddenly ? pfft , stupid .

i suddenly missed Sufyan alot last night , cause i logged in into my friendster account for god knows what , and i saw that he was the first featured in my profile , and also because the last time i saw him was at Musical Night , which was months ago , so i texted him , and hes suppose to get back to me cause he was busy at that moment , but he didnt .
oh well , kinda expected it .

okay im bored , and i should slap myself for being distracted !
i wanted to study Chemistry , but the laptop distracted me .
shit .

2009-07-10T17:45:00.005+08:00

i hate it how i cant sleep at night , cause i think thats the only time i let myself worry .
i also hate it how im so weak and let the fear overcome me .
its stupid how i get so agitated just thinking about things that have hurt ,
and possibly might hurt me again .
oh well dont blame me , im just human , weak and fragile .
oh my ! i need to grow up .

on a brighter note ,

Happy 17th Birthday Renny Normala :D
stay cute , happy and perky , like you always are !
& oh , i wont forget you and all those times we spent tgther .
ive never tell you this , but heh i love you ! :D

2009-07-10T00:30:00.004+08:00

okay , its obvious i miss Ry ! nobody to webcam camwhore anymore :(

okay i know i unprivate my blog , cause its freaking annoying when i have to log in everytime i wanna view my blog . i set my blog on private at the first place bcoz i was lazy to update , and if you realise my post are all getting crappier by the day . besides that , i created a twitter account cause i think its easier ? i dont have to think bout what to blog .

went for maths today , like every Thursday , but was v restless . and i was hungweeee , like every maths lesson . and i think Mr Anthony was annoyed cause me , Niza & Haq was making alot of noises . and i keep bumping into that girl like everywhere eh Niza ? annoying ! *rolls eyes* and shared some things , and what Niza and Haq said is scaring me alot .

im like totally scared , like vvvv scared . omg !

okay done , i updated ! :D

2009-07-07T18:27:00.001+08:00

i wanna go Henderson Waves !

2009-07-05T20:15:00.002+08:00

my mind is in a jumbled tangled mess .

im gonna delete this space soon ,
cause i no longer have the need to rant things here .
or rather , ranting things here dont make me feel better anymore .

2009-07-04T22:59:00.006+08:00

Though the fire did not decrease one tiny degree – in fact, I began to develop a new capacity for experiencing it, a new sensitivity to appreciate, separately, each blistering tongue of flame that licked through my veins – I discovered that I could think around it. I could remember why I shouldn’t scream. I could remember the reason why I’d committed to enduring this unendurable agony. I could remember that, though it felt impossible now, there was something that might be worth the torture.

- Bella Cullen, Breaking Dawn, Chapter 19, p.378

rmb , much much more than anybody ever could .

2009-07-03T18:44:00.004+08:00

Caterpillar in the tree,
how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
don't you worry hold on tight.
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly Fly Away

Kait-Kait & Emma was vvv cute just now , omg ! :D
& no im not crying cause i know Ry will be back vvv soon ,
even if its just for awhile .
& i got cute flower stickers that i bought at T3 . lol .

2009-06-28T16:36:00.006+08:00

lol , i know we look crazy :D

2008 E2 English students , im v sure you all rmb this .

especially Mer , Ismah , Nas , Naufal , okay the group over at the back , yeah .

okay i think most of the students in E2 knows what im talking about . hahas .

2009-06-26T22:09:00.011+08:00

Ry , when we wanna webcam camwhore again !?

ive been gone for not even a day , and some miss me already . Cheong gave me a stuff toy , he said he got from kfc -.- all i know is kfc dont give away soft toys , so idk . manager wanted me to work tmr , but im freaking lazy already , so i die die say no , even when she said she'll get me donuts ! i dont want donuts , so haha . waited like an hour for Lina to knock off and we headed to Esplanade , to sit and chat , and lol , we were like laughing all the way . i saw the ntuc building with animated light thingy and it reminded me of Gee , and her 'i like , i take' attitude cause she said she like the thingy and its to high for her to take . it reminded me of sec sch times , when she'll go , 'i like ..' when she saw Mdm Lung's markers and she'll take it , and the poor teacher would be looking everywhere for her markers , and she'll scratch her head , and say , 'Nurul , Sanjitah ! got see my markers ?' and omg , Gee said Kenric is nicer after Daniel Lee/Si Yang knock his head with a freaking test-tube during one of the chem practical lessons last year , that caused him to bleed ! rmb this ? 'HI KENRIC !!!' his reply would always be , 'wtfcuk ah fcuk off !' wtfcuk right ? im glad im making you laugh :D & oh Mdm Tan Bee Yong ! and her electric shock thingy ! and her make up retarded son !, cause Mr Bathiar said when chinese people get married to the another person with the same surname , the child will come out cacat , and how she screamed at the girls when they were screaming in the toilet ?! and rmb , Mr B and his , 'pls KLOZ the door' , and the 'dont refer to others' thingy ! omg ! so funny !

haiya , thnks too Gee lah , i rmb all this !

& i was going thru the pics i keep inside my wallet and i saw Nurul Adriana's sec 1 photo , omg , i miss that girl so much ! and not to forget Adlin Sabrina Bte Aswandy also ! she still kept that adorable diary we shared , i wanna re-read it ! omg , im getting excited ! hahahaha .

and Farah Mustaffa ! her muka sikat rambut photo and baby photo is still with me !

where she go mans ?!

& Michael Jackson's dead aww :(

like what his brother Jermaine (sp?) said , may Allah always be with you .

and Abang Mimi was dancing retardedly to his songs at work just now !

did i mention i love minahspeak.livejournal.com ?

2009-06-25T17:44:00.003+08:00

i feel awful .
just because im always here to take it all in ,
doesnt mean i wont stop , breakdown and be gone one fine day .

im only human , ive got feelings too .
and everything just hurts really bad .

2009-06-18T16:23:00.006+08:00

heys , the outing with the 4ED's 08 on Tuesday was great .

although out of 38 only 10 turned up , Gee , Ish , Dessy , Md. Daniel , Yong Jin , Hong Wei , Jun Hao , Jie Qi , Kenric & Me . the moment we saw each other we were like constantly teasing each other bout stuffs . and i think Kenric got the worst of it all , we were teasing him bout Saleem (who wasnt there) , and hes temper , and his red-face . hahahaha , Gee & Ish anti redness cream . haha . and Ish keep saying funny things , that make me lol , until the rest asked me to shut up or atleast laugh softer . hahaha . stupid Dessy Sachek said , its good that im noisy cause if im quiet means theres something wrong and that im gnna cry very soon after that .

hiakdush ! *punches Dessy Sachek* we caught Drag Me To Hell at Marina Square , and sorry Gee & Ish , i know i screamed alot . the movie's great , it got us talking like hours after the movie ended , and they keep putting curses on my bag's buttons , cause it the movie the old lady put a curse on the victim's button . we went bowling after that , and its fun , but stupid Kenric left halfway w/o telling us . oh well , his lost . after bowling we had lunch , and then walked all the way to esplanade and camwhored using Jie Qi/Ah Qi's digi cam . we parted ways and i went to Jurong Point with Gee after that . so yeah its great , and we should do it again :D

yesterday went out with Boyfie :D

yeahs all the way to Great World for Ghost of Girlfriend's Past .

and i had fun , not because of the movie , but because i was with Boyfie :D

and Boyfie you owe me something okay .

and i got class today , and im lazy .

plus , i have to work tmr :S

i want that LG Arena phone , kay so cool .

2009-06-12T20:43:00.004+08:00

things i wanna do now ,

one , watch Drag Me To Hell & Ghost Of Girlfriend's Past .

two , be not lazy and start reading my BioChem notes and practise my Maths .

three , stop working , cause im freaking tired already .

four , do something to my room , cause its constantly in a mess .

five , do something to my hair , i have no idea what .

six , re-read the whole Twilight saga again .

seven , get more books .

eight , go crazy with my cousins .

nine , finish watching Marley & Me with Boyfie .

ten , be nicer to Boyfie .

& Nisa , your Boyfriend suck , with a capital S !
yeahs , Kak Nurul ! we should meet up with this Shook guy vvv soon !

2009-06-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

im so very the bored .

and Farid Md. Noor said i kerek already !

hes being sensitive cause he said , i dont bother bout people from Serangoon already ,

haha what for ? when nobody from Serangoon bother bout me . lol .

& he called me a shorty *starts crying*

im not short , im fun-size ! heh T.T

niways im excited for the 16th , Sentosa (AGAIN!?) then dinner ,

with the 4eds 08 . & when we did the planning Jun Hao acted like a sissy , no offence ah .

annoying okay ! hahaha , & Ish told me to take a chill pill -.-

cant wait to see Saangeetha ! *grins*

& i seriously wanna camwhore with someone .

Ry , when you coming back again ? :D

2009-06-08T20:10:00.003+08:00

omigod , i cant wait for New Moon !

i stayed over at Mak Busu's house during the weekends ,

and i think i minded my business alot down there ,

when Ica was home , she'll be stucked at the lappy and

Kak Nurul would be stuck on the psp , and i'll be watching tv .

haha , but we did get to camwhore with Mak Busu's IPhone .

on Sunday , we went to Suntec City then Esplanade .

went home after that , cause i had to work tday .

& i think i wanna sleep .

im tired like fcxk ! bleh .

2009-06-05T22:39:00.006+08:00

Retail Therapy with Ibu just now was great !
i think i can spend like a bomb at Cotton On lol .
and and and Hannah Montanaaaaa ! was great
*grins & two thumbs up*
and Ish is sending me the songs in the movie now , haha !
Shai , Ry , Boyfie , the movie is not retarded ! *sticks out tongue*

^^^ got that from Kak Nurul's blog .

im not mia-ing laaaaaa . haha .
i think tmr im gnna go sleepover with Nisa & Kak Nurul at Nenek's house .
haha . if im not lazy that is . and i looooooooooove my bed like sooo much ,
i scared i'll miss my bed . hahaha . lol .
kay bye .

haha , ALEX wants to accompany me go shopping !

2009-06-04T21:35:00.004+08:00

Ry , the plane's not gnna crash ,
and i will berhati-hati di ruang platform cause i dont want my kaki to get stuck in the ruang platform . haha familiar not ? told you i'll blog about it .
had an awesome day tday , sheesha with the girls then dinner .
i didnt get to watch my Hannah Montana , grr .
tmr , perhaps .

at random times on random days ,
i'll feel so low , and i'll wonder why im still going on ,
with life in general .

yeah , im not emotionless and occasionally , i'll feel bitter bout it .
so so bitter . and i guess the only thing thats stopping me from making a fuss out of it ,
is the fact that im constantly reminding myself how damn lucky i am .
so , yeah i'll be fine , like always .

im v tired .

2009-06-04T00:35:00.002+08:00

Fahrul Fahmi Moktar owes me $40+++ and i know he wont pay me back so soon .
boo you brother ! i hang pig head infront of ure bedroom door !

err tmr ? chngi beach ? movie ? or sheesha sia ?
lol , im cnfused . can Lina come ? Sak ?

& i feel guilty cause i decorated Boyfie's arm with loadsa scratch marks .
im sorry Boyfie :(

2009-06-03T01:48:00.005+08:00

i read something somewhere and i feel like laughing , like the total rolling on floor laughing till i gag with tears running down my face kinda laugh . oh my Ry , i think we talked bout this last Friday . hahaha fcxking funny ! its the kinda thing , you see or read or hear and then you stare at ure friend for a sec or two , and start bursting into peals of laughter . omg , i think i'll do the crazy laugh to myself like a mad woman that escaped from Taman Bahagia whenever i think bout this . hahahaha , funny lah ! i wonder how someone can be so full of him/herself till it becomes a joke to/for someone else . like seriously , dont be sooooooooooooo perasan can ? , meaning the normal perasan jambu one can lah , thats not so amusing but the 'oh my god !, you love me' *waves to invisible/non-existence fans* kinda perasan is like a little too over the top . like lol , some people , like me , find it disgusting , not because we're jealous of you , like you think we are , and im stating this fact here cause i know its the first thing i think you're gnna think , cause sometimes i think that way too . hahaha ! i cant stand reading this kinda perasan shit cause it disgust me . cause i dont think ure a great person , i think ure normal , you do things normal people do , and i think you should be perasan only at the normal kinda level , like how normal people would be , cause ure not an awesome person okay . im not saying i am , so if anybody by any case anybody perasan again like the malay proverb siapa makan cili , dialah rasa pedas , im gnna admit im not an awesome person BUT at the very least i dont perasan as much as you ! oh this post can be about anybody , maybe even me , cause maybe possibly i'll be so crazy to blog negatively bout myself or my alter-ego . hahahahahaha , seriously this shyt is fcxking funny . woah , i can post bout this kinda things . hahaha , no life much ?

& they should stop showing movie trailers on the telly cause i saw the trailer for Hannah Montana The Movie , and i badly wanna watch it !

hahaha , Boyfie gnna find this annoying . hahahaha .

McKey ^^^

oooo , yest i watch ANTM Cycle 11 , and McKey won , even though shes super pretty ,

im gnna be biased and say shes not a great model even though i know for a fact that she is ,

cause i loooooooooooooooove Sam , shes prettier lah ! and i think she should win ! aiyer .

Sam ! see isnt she pretty ? ^^^^

i seriously need to find important stuffs to blog bout ,

cause im blogging bout err redundant stuffs ?

woah , im wasting my sleeping time doing stupid thing hahahaha yay me !

2009-06-02T20:41:00.004+08:00

I WANNA WATCH HANNAH MONTANAAAAAAAAA !!

Ry , i promise i wont sing The Climb when im with you ,

so that i wont remind you of someone , and also so that i wont hurt ure ears .

i wanna watch i wanna watch ! Boyfieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA !

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! Hannah Montanaaaa !

okay im irritating bye .

& ooooo , GSS !

im feeling random , i want a cousin's sleepover , so that i can meet Abang Zamak ,

and pull the hair on his legs , and make Raihan massage my legs ,

and disturb Abang Rahmat , and Abang Fakhrurazi , okay is that how i spell his name ?,

and then disturb Kak Nurul about Alan Misai and and and .. loads of things lah .

but who would wanna organise it ? Kak Itin wont be back till Ramadhan/Syawal T.T

i wanna go Grandaddy's place ! i looooooooove looking at the big big big family portrait on the wall , it make me feel so nice . okay damn random .

2009-06-02T20:07:00.003+08:00

i caught up with Ry , Cassie & Cass's bf Abby-Dilly-Dildo-Dadila-Man ?
(Ry , i need you to tell me again , haha) last friday . we walk all over Clarke Quay , then Boat Quay for tcc , and Cassie treat me to the Oreo Milk Shake , lol can you find the Oreo Man the Oreo Man the Oreo Man ? lol inside joke . and then i drag them all over Plaza Sing to find Carlo Rino .
oh and the way Abdillah , Cass & Ry describe the way i talk and laugh make me seem crazy .
lol .

i went to Kota Tinggi & Batu Pahat at Msia during the weekends ,
and i have nothing to say bout the trip except that some random mcd guy treat me to a strawberry milkshake .

tmr is Wedns ! yay .
Chngi Beach Thursday , Retail Therapy Friday , Swimming Saturday ,
and Sit At Home And Rot Sunday .

Saangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (rmb that ?) , i miss you too D:

Cassie better come back from Germany soon !
erms kay im v bored .

2009-05-25T20:35:00.003+08:00

just now , Lina asked me whether i have a cheongsam (sp?) to lend her ,
and our OM heard us and gave us the wtfcuk blur face .
haha , classic sia ! damn funny .

Cheong said he sian look at me everyday ,
and that i should go away cause he prefers the new staff .
hmph , forget me already ?

i want to sleep .
& i think Boyfie should too .
you look awful Boyfie , im sorry .

2009-05-24T14:48:00.003+08:00

i had a dream ,
and in that dream i waited .
i sat , look out for you and waited .
and in that dream , you never came .
i told you rmb ? you said its weird .
but now , you're telling me to wait .

im on my knees , please i'll say .
please .

i thought when one inflict physical pain on oneself ,
one would feel better , and that he'll forget bout all the emotional pain .
how come its not working ?

much much more than anybody ever could , rmb that .
i love you .

i need sleep .

2009-05-24T01:48:00.004+08:00

*clears throat* , erms im so sorry cuz ,
i didnt know it was ure bday yest , 23/05 .
(yeah rabak per !, aper nyer cousin)
so Happy Belated 18th bday Abang Zamaksyari :D
like you said , legal ciggies ! (& what for !? YOU DONT SMOKE !)
& im gnna see you go clubbing soon , w/o me !
& YOUR LEGAL ! and im jealous , boo T.T
Happy Belated Birthday lah ! XD
i'll go to next gig , i promise , i think .
just make sure you give me the money for the tix :D

2009-05-21T16:42:00.004+08:00

with just a smile , you make everything okay .

i spent the whole day with Boyfie yest ! :D
and i dont feel good , i think im gnna fall sick again , soon .
very very soon . sigh .
i took Bio notes from my perasan tcher yest , yay can study !
and my classmates loves camwhoring -.-
and it seems vvv pathetic that i have very little time , its gnna be June soon :S
and my first paper is in Oct .
and like all little brothers , my brother is trying to annoy me . aiya !
okie bye .

2009-05-19T19:41:00.004+08:00

for you , a thousand times over .

i saw Naufal & Hasyir/Hasif (i didnt know which twin that was) ,
and Naufal doesnt really have that cool tattoo on his neck ,
lucky for him cause i think i'll kill him if he does . hah !
im tired & i think im gonna fall sick vvv soon .
my head nearly killed me at work today ,
cause work as usual was fatiguingly horrible :S
i think if i can i'll most probably hibernate for two weeks hahahaha .

i wanna go schooooooooooooooooooooooooooool D:
i want i want ! i realie wish i could go to school D:
and thats on the very top of my wishlist now ,
AND i dont have a wishlist !
THIS . IS . DEPRESSING ! *starts crying*

i feel like camwhoring , hahahaha Boyfie ?

2009-05-18T21:03:00.009+08:00

& im tired and i wanna study .
i wanna stay at home all day and do nothing but study .
kay im feeling stressed already , and ive got no time .
how sad ?

i want nobody nobody but you ! *clap clap*
hahahahaha ! XD
& omg , the LG ARENA's fxcking cool !
i miss Aisyieeeeeee D:

i dont know whats wrong with me ,

one moment im fine , the next moment im not .

i'll feel super sucky and then i'll feel the stupid stabbing pain in my heart .

its stupid . i feel stupid .

or maybe just disgusted , disgusted with myself .

theres fcuking loads of what-ifs and its bothering me D:

2009-05-16T21:51:00.002+08:00

aww , i cant rmb since when i looooooove looking at wedding photos ,

but i can rmb i'll stare at these photos vvvvv long whenever i see them .

awww , Boyfie ! i wanna get married ! hahahahaha ! haha , okay no , random seh .

okie maybe i just wanna learn how to take nice photos , or even better , nice wedding photos !

ahh okay okay , i know short break short break . im on short break !

bye .

& i couldnt sleep last night , was bothered about something .

cant figure out what .

get well soon Boyfie D:

dont be sick too long kays , i'll worry myself sick .

2009-05-15T21:01:00.002+08:00

in order to succeed this year , ive set a goal for myself . i realised that when i was in school , i didnt had an aim , a goal in which i seriously thought through . i knew now , that i should have set an aim the moment i first step into my sec school , or latest by sec 3 , but i didnt . my general aim was to pass (not with flying colours) , and to get into a polytechnic and into any diploma course that im eligible for . and haha , thnks to my simple mindset , i didnt get into any -.- im not gonna repeat my mistakes again this year , and start all over next year , cause im required to take all of my 7 subj all over again if i fail again this year , and im so not looking forward to that . ive set my target , and i know what course im seriously interested in , and i'll study hard . i really have to . someone plsplspls slap me if i dont . i really have to make it this time . & i know ive gotta stop my ramblings and start studying . so , maybe i'll be on hiatus , or maybe just a short break , cause ive got to grab any opportunity i get , which is not alot , to study . & im still considering whether i should go for the picnic on Sunday , cause im seriously lazy , and i rather sit at home and read thru my Bio/Chem notes while resting . ohmygod , i seriously need to study . can someone get me something that will electrify (or whatever that word is) me whenever im lazy ? i know some must be thinking , 'mcm faham jer budak nie' knowing what a lazy person i am , but im seriously serious (?!!!) . theres a saying , failure before success , but i definitely wont achieve success if i dont work on it . so , okay im gonna mug now . bye :D

2009-05-12T21:18:00.003+08:00

omg Renny , rmb this ? we pranked Ish that day , hahaha !

i hate how my phone and laptop freaking messed up , with my photos and documents scattered all over the place . and i cant arrange them properly cause i cant find my phone's usb cause i dont know where the hell i put my laptop bag and cause im lazy to arrange and also to look for bag for my usb . can someone do it for me ? pretty pls *pouts* and i realised i didnt use my thumbdrive at all , and its making me unhappy cause its a waste of money . okay gnna steal notes from bio tcher soon . & ive yet to figure out the modes on my computer cause theres three . okay i think im gnna sit infront of this electronic device all night and figure things out .

& im in Ishyy's much-missed friends list :D

*jumps around* YAY ! can time travel a little wee bit faster ? cause i wanna get my Os done and over with , cause i wanna go to school even though its scares me seeing all my other friends stressed out over school BUT imagining waiting till next April ! omfg .

and im seriously irritated when Ibu text me everyday after work , asking if im otw home , oh my its bad enough you dont allow me work at night , and its fine when you text at night , but texting me at 7pm in the evening asking me whether im otw home !? its getting on my nerves and its also a waste of my 5cents to just reply you with a yes or no . cant you just wait till i get home ? you'll then know the answer to ure questions lah ! and im so tired of you nagging non-stop at me , you think i wanna purposely do something stupid you'll frowned on and get nagged ? uhhh no ? ugh , im getting pissed over stupid minor things again . grr !

& i got petty over Boyfie's ~~stupid~~ theories cause they scare me .

i miss Boyfie badly D:

aahhhhh , Andy Ali just texted me !

Adlin Sabrinaaaaaa , rmb him ? hahaha .

2009-05-11T21:10:00.007+08:00

& err , shut up i know i dont look like my mum D:

a day late but , Happy Belated Mummy's day :D

heh Ibu , i know ive been a bad daughter , im rude , and i dont always listen to you ,
i always make you worry till you told me you might suffer from hypertension cause of me ,
i always make you buy stuffs for me , stuffs i dont need , and make you waste money ,
i always wake up late , dont make my bed , dont eat when i have to , and fall sick all the time , and i always scream at you when you come into my room without knocking the door (privacy seh !) , and i always cause you to get nagged by Ayah , till you can go deaf (but ive apologised for that) . i know even the slightest 'ahhh !/ehh !/ohh !' directed at you is a sin , but i cant promise i'll stop doing that , cause im only human and that nobody is perfect . but i'll promise i'll try to behave , and pass my maths and science this year , cause you said thats the best present i can ever give you . and i'll help you clean the house more , heh . and cook too if you want me to T.T
i love you Ibu :D & jgn risau , i still rmb the saying , syurga di bawah telapak kaki Ibu :D
AND that i wont go to heaven ever if Ibu wont forgive me , so , i'll seek for forgiveness before i die . & i better start apologising to everyone ive offended before its too late , cause i might die tmr :S erms , okay my post bcame crappy .

i wanna go to the picnic , but i wanna rest at home ! i wanna sleep in on a Sunday !
but i miss Sak & Ry & Lina & Shai !
& Cassie and Chloe might be going to , which makes me wanna go !

and i shouldnt have took Camelia by Irwansyah from Shai ,
cause that song is sad , very sad . its a vvvv cb song too , but its more to sad .
ahh okay whatever bye :D
& the malay drama , Cintaku Saerah is damn sad , i cried when i watched it (????!!!!!) .

EDITED ////////

OH MY GOD ! I FOUND THIS AT GEE's blog ,
and i burst out laughing , fcuking funny , reminds me of school last year !

; now;assignments turn back to secondary school;topic>research>modifications>layout>final layout no colourscheme because year 1 is all about gray scale images and production.all this bring me back to mr sharin's art lessons where i always draw about eyes .and all he says is that "this is the last time i'm seeing you drawing this". and finally i started on flowers throughout sec 4. he's so funny. and i miss him. "you want to get attention during o'level;just bring this pencil and even the examiners will wanna use it'' remember it meera?with his face not smiling.i wanna see him :( . and you also "present" his mom with his colourpencil.and we stick notes at his car to say that we are not vanderlising at his whiteboard:))).i love it:) and remember the markers i like?i bake you pissa:}muffinz.ozmoziz.kenric is pregnent.miget.making merchendises for pregnent kenric.and still worrying for his broken head at the chemistry lab:}}}}}haha.miss those days."i wann to back to school!!!"(kicking and pulling the school fence)haha.that was loads of fun.okay;you no say that before.i go do my homework wait i need to do the hocky pocky at my lecture theater.haha

; art lessons with Mr Sharin (my fave teacher !) , the HUGE PENCIL he had , and his straight-stoned face , he claiming we "vandalised his car/whiteboard" and threatening to report us to Mr Thina so we'll get suspended . and the markers ! he said it was his Mum's bday that day ,
so i wished her , and gave her Mr Sharin's fcuking expensive colour pencils as a present . and rmb ! he said he couldnt stay back for art srp ? and that he said his wife would lock him out of the house , and that if he wore the same clothes to school the next day , we should know why . and rmb , we assumed his wife was pregnant and just gave birth , cause Mr Sharin look damn tired and that he smelled like babies ? rmb he told us that penguin and the sampan joke ? and that his niece asked him whether Winnie The Pooh was male or female ? hahhahahah ! & i miss him too , i want my canvas back ! & i still owe him his blue colour pencil cause i made it damn short when i used it for my colour scheme !

; Bio & Chem lessons with Mdm Lung (she's my fave too !) , Gee stealing her markers , cause she LIKE it , she can buy it but she chose to steal it cause you LIKE it , & cher has difficulty pronouncing the letter S . she told us she can bake Muffingz ! and diffuzion and ozmozis !

; Kenric , has midgets as parents , him being pregnant cause hes cranky all the time , designing clothes and making garlic perfumes for Kenric , and him and Saleem being gay cause their together all the time , and not forgetting when he and Daniel Lee had the stupid fight and a cylinder/test-tube broke on his head , and all of us freaked out when we saw blood ! and we got scolded for being concern . stupid Kenric ! & oh the wedding posters we designed !!! garlic wine ! hahahahahaha !

; night studies ! there was no night studies during Ramadhan , and nobody informed us , and you desperately wanted to go to school , till you pulled the fence outside school , screaming ,
' I WANNA GO SCHOOL !'

; Miss Swan & Little Britain ! and the fighter video ! we keep talking bout it in school rmb ?
the hockey-pockey ! hahahahhaa , damn funny !

and dont forget the songs , bout Ku-Ku-Kudis-Kudis ! and many many more !
hahaha Ish loves writing songs ! hahaha , funny lah .

& omigod , Gee's tagboard ! funny !

okay , i miss school !
& Ish , Renny & Gee !

2009-05-08T00:25:00.003+08:00

familiar skin right ? messed up the skin again , and i cant be bothered to figure out whats wrong .
and very lazy to go make up new codes . so thank god , i got the old codes . omg , i seriously need to stop fiddling around . & thnks Haq and Navin for being good pool teachers haha . Haq i seriously want my Milo Dinasour/Godzilla ! Jalan Kayu pls ? i dont like this skin . ahhh ! makes me wanna delete my blog , haiya !

2009-05-05T21:42:00.006+08:00

found this is Saangeetha's blog .

" irsyad;-i miss you and your rubbish.
meera;-you're sweet too
-i miss you and your rubbish too.
renny;-i miss you and mimi.haha "

awww , Gee is so sweet .
& hahaha , mimi ! Renny's bestfriend !
she intro-ed it to us hahaha .

*nudges Ish , Renny & Gee* and whines , 'I WANT MUDPIE !'

crap , i rmb-ed the hilarious mudpie craze . and posters ! dont forget the posters !
i seriously miss school now , great .

OH FCUK NO , CRAMP ~ !!!!
& my heart fcuking aches laaaahhhh !
okay goodbye .

2009-05-02T22:17:00.005+08:00

caught Jangan Tegur with Ibu & brothers a few days back , and yeah i gotta admit that Jangan Tegur is way better than Congkak & Jgn Pandang Belakang , so people go watch it . but the sound effects suck real bad though , hah ! and my uncle passed away Friday morning and its very sad and unexpected , cause Ibu said he was completely healthy and free of diseases , and that its very unexpected that someone so healthy can just leave just like that . i feel so sorry & sad for my cousins D: like Ibu said , one doesnt have to be sick to pass away , and that scared the shit out of me , cause i can die in the next 5mins , oh my ! hopefully not , cause theres still LOADS that i wanna do . & i think i better start doing good things , so that even if i go to hell , i wont suffer so bad , okay thats so redundant . kays , i think im typing crap . & im sick again , hah thats not new am i right ? cause im always sick . & no doctor , i do not have swine flu . and i got to meet Kasyir today , that adorable kid i absolutely adore (?!!!) :D

haha , okay bye .

2009-04-29T10:55:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Ishyyyyyy ! :D
i cant come on Friday (sorry Mer) , but i'll most prob bash you soon .
and omg , i suddenly rmb-ed all the stupid things we did in school last year ,
with Renny & Saangeetha , rmb all the stupid songs and fake orals and loads loads more ?
eh , we still havent go to the arcade seh ! hahaha .
it took me so long to rmb all this stuffs :S
& Happy Belated Birthday Cassieeee ! :D
; which was on the 27th , i think .
& Happy Belated Birthday Akif !
; which was yest . heh .

hahaha okay bye .

2009-04-26T22:09:00.002+08:00

hello , i woke up vvvvv early today , at around 4am cause all of us wanted to send Kak Itin off .

and i slept like 45mins before that , cause i couldnt get to sleep .
cabbed to the airport and met the rest of the family there .

took alot of pictures and we ate mac breakfast !

and and Nisa buih ah ! lol . didnt see her , cause she woke up late -.-

& i miss Kak Itin already D:

but she told me she'll come back for Raya ! yay-yay Raya !

lol , puasa belum dah nak raya .

hms okay bye .

2009-04-21T22:46:00.005+08:00

^^^ aww see , Gee is so sweet :D

she edited that , duh .

Ry ! Gia (sp?) is adorable right right right ? and she blew a goodbye-kiss to us ! *melts* and when she said 'move' , it bcame , 'Mooooooo ..!' went ngaji just now , and Baby Rayyan talk to me , and i dont understand baby language so i just keep making stupid faces , and nodding my head , and i keep pointing to the flower patterns on the sofa to distract him . aww , adorable seh !

&&& Boyfie came to Capitol today :D

oh , i miss Adlin Sabrina Bte Aswandy D:

2009-04-21T00:50:00.002+08:00

omg , old old photo !

DIE-ANNE-NAH , looks way diff and preetier now .

okay , i just wanna say that i love calling Diana , DIE-ANNE-NAH !

it sounds nicer to me T.T hahas , annoying right ?

i can imagine Diana rolling her eyes . hahas .

omg , i feature you on my blog ! :D

okie , the whole purpose of blogging this crap is , to keep my blog ALIVEEEE !

even though its a non-living thing , lalala ~

okay bye .

2009-04-19T20:47:00.006+08:00

I'm a new soul

I came to this strange world

Hoping I could learn a bit about how to give and take

But since I came here

Felt the joy and the fear

Finding myself making every possible mistake .

Nisa said my blog is dead .

haha , like you my dear cousin , im just plain lazy to update my blog .

spend the day with Boyfie on Wedns :D went to class on Thurs and Haq drove me and Niza (NOTE : Niza ! not Nisa) home after class . how sweet ? haha . and i had to work on Friday . and however hard i try to do things right , according to the way people wants me to do it , i'll still end up getting F-ed because of something else , and about something minor at that , seriously frustrating . a few days ago , i was thinking bout my goals in life and i rmb-ed that i wanted to be a psychologist . rmb Aisyie ? i told you i'll paste the flyer for the psychology course in sp all over my room ? havent gotten round to pasting yet and i most prob wont cause i dont wanna dirty my wall , haha . & i still wanna be a psychologist , but the cop for the course is like what 9 points ? woah ! and now i suddenly think i need to start studying like very very soon . and i think i'll start right after this mwahaha ! and i love Mr Anthony , cause i can do trig now ! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ heh . i got to see Ryann & Suresh today :D and i still miss Sak , Shai & Lina D: kay bye . Nisa my blog's not dead :D

2009-04-14T20:38:00.002+08:00

Zig-Zag, cross the floor
Shuffle in Diagonal,
When the drum hits,
hands on your hips.
One foot in, 180 twist.

Then a .. Zig-Zag, step slide
Lean in left, clap 3 times
Shake it out, head to toe
Throw it all together, thats how we roll.

i miss Ry D:

& yes , i get pissed alot easier these days .

2009-04-10T16:33:00.005+08:00

Oh , I've been traveling on this road to long .

Just trying to find my way back home .

The old me is dead and gone , dead and gone .

caught Confessions of A Shopaholic with Boyfie on Wedns , and the movie's great :D and Boyfie bought me something , thank you Boyfie :D and i have to remind myself to grow up whenever i feel like throwing tantrums , im sorry Boyfie .

Ry ? when we going swimming ?

i wanna go swimming , pretty pls ?

2009-04-07T13:19:00.002+08:00

Sheesha with Shai yest after work :D
Sak left us for Farhan . Lina & Ry was working , so it was only the two of us . Sat ? Sheesha ? we'll see whether i can make it . shared alot with Shai yest , felt a little better . went Penin & Bugis before Arab Street , Shai wanted to get skinnies and i wanted to find my denim skirt , but didnt get it cause Shai said its better for me to buy a dress , so i got one . and then Topshop after Sheesha . walk back to City Hall after that , cause Shai wanted to wait for her sister and i went back home after that . & Mum didnt allow me to go out today , grr !

i hate it when i get yelled at the moment i wake up . and i hate it that im always being yelled at to wake up . and i hate it that the person is you , ure just being fcuking unreasonable . whats wrong with me sleeping a little longer ? whats the point of waking up to an empty house , with nobody to talk to ? whats the point of being wide awake and then feeling all the hurt ? i hate feeling like a baby , crying all the time . is it that hard to leave me alone ? locked up all alone in my room minding my own business ? oh ya , i forgot , you have issues with me locking myself up in my room . cause nothing i do is right anymore , i never did anything right . youre always the right one , you never wanna admit ure mistakes . oh ya , why replace that fcuking glass top if you know or rather we know you gonna break it again ?

2009-04-05T19:39:00.003+08:00

HAPPY-HAPPY BIRTHDAY RY :D

im gonna make sure i drag you out to celebrate you turning 17 !

i swear i will :D

im back from the movie marathon over at Kak Itin's crib . and Nisa , you missed out on all the fun , boo ! blame ure stupid bloody manager nyehehe . there was loads of finger food , and not forgetting POPCORN ! and yeah , we watch ALOT of movies . 8 movies to be exact . so Kak Itin the last gathering bfore you fly off to Myanmar/Vietnam/Cambodia , i forget again , was successful :D two thumbs up ! and i pulled the hair on Abang Zamak's legs , and he smack me in the face with his paperbag . and Raihan massage me :D AND we all agreed we have fun teasing Abang Rahmat with his girlfriend , Kak Juriah :D like lol . the next gathering will be like , dont know when , most prob next year when Kak Itin comes back D:

& YAY , i get to see the DQs on Tuesday for their SYF , cancelled my shift for Tuesday after being let of with a warning , and there yes ! im able to make it on Tuesday :D

ah fcuk it , i seriously dont give a shit about it anymore .

but as someone who stays in the house , i feel i have the right to say and show that im disappointed and disgusted by ure egoistic behaviour .

2009-04-03T20:25:00.004+08:00

i went to Downtown East to ice-skate today . i wanted to actually but i didnt , cause i was cramping all over . so left Danial alone to play by himself and Ibu & me walk all over Downtown . we wanted to watch Confessions of A Shopaholic at first but Ibu chnged her mind cause Ayah will be alone at home T.T adults ~ i wanna watch that movie , and Coming Soon also , but its not showing anymore D: & Fahmi missed out on all the fun . boo you !

& tmr , Movie MARATHON !!! Nisa's not coming D:

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeoooooooo ~

Ry ! lets dye our hair !

2009-04-02T16:11:00.005+08:00

When there is only a single star left in the sky.

At that very moment, the path of forgiveness will close.

The writing in the Quran will vanish.

The sun will lower itself with the earth.

Prophet Muhammad saw said,

'Who ever delivers this news to someone else, I will on the Day of Judgement make for him a place in Jannat.'

P/S: If you're a muslim, please re-post this (if you have a blog).

May god bless you.

oh yes im aware , and im very scared D:
and oh , Happy Belated 17th bday to Seda Nafisah :D

& like Boyfie :D i loooove Wednesdays !

2009-03-31T20:23:00.004+08:00

i saw Naqib yest ^^^^ :D

today , i attempted to wipe away a cockroach i saw on a table , but the cockroach crawled out of the cloth and ran up the wall . and then Fifi finds me by his side in less than 5secs whispering loudly that theres a cockroach on the table . yay me , i managed to stop myself from screaming and running away , but i couldnt stop myself from getting all jittery . i hate cockroaches ! & so far , i manage to get Cheong & Lam to treat me to Starbucks :D whos next ? weeeeeoooooooooo ~ and that reminds me that Colin still owes me . hahaha , and Poope tried to hint to Cheong that she wanted Starbucks too , but Cheong couldnt be bothered . hahahas . Cheong loves me more ah Poope ! and and and i have a personal Starbucks delivery man :D

and i seriously hate customers who think theyre big fcuks just bcause they reserved a table for loadsa people and also bcoz they ordered alot of dishes . apparently theyre just reallie blind cause they cant see that the service providers [glam alternative for waitress/waitresses] are damn busy , cause theyre there making stupid requests and complaining just bcause theyre so thirsty they cant wait for another 5mins for their stupid ice water T.T yes Ry , we hate our job . oh ya , the restaurant was empty for approximately 40mins , and me and Ry had fun wiping mirrors , windows & doors and acting like a character in Memoirs of Geisha with the purse Poope gave us :D

and oh where's Sak ?

2009-03-30T00:50:00.004+08:00

hello hello , the family bbq was fun . haha , we as in the kids didnt do much bbq-ing cause the adults bbq the food for us ,all we had to do is ask and then we get to eat . weee ~ after eating , and listening to Abang Zamak , Kak Nurul & Nisa serenading songs on the guitar , i finally managed to bug Kak Itin enough to stop bbq-ing and start playing the games , i bugged her to buy . we started off with Twister and then cntinued with Freeze , Charades and some other games . i even had to do a forfeit for being the first person out of a game -.- we roasted marshmellows after that ! :D and then eveybody started going to sleep one by one , and i guess im the only one who didnt get to sleep even a wink last night , cause it was freaking cold . manage to get distracted for awhile cause exchanged ghost stories which pretty much freak me out with Kak Nurul but after she fell asleep , i was alone , staring at trees -.- Ayah gave me his jacket when he came over and i was still shivering despite wearing 3 layers of clothing T.T

and due to the cold , i got a little too cranky which lasted through the day until i got home , so i didnt join in when the others started kite-flying , just stayed under the canopy and laze around .

however , i manage to see the sunrise which is the only advantage of not being able to got to sleep :D & Kak Itin said , i have days when i'll look like a typical chinese girl , and that it doesnt help that i have a chinese boyfriend D: and Abang Zamak said this to me , 'EH ! WHAT HAPPENED TO URE FACE ?! THE LAST TIME I SEE YOU , URE FACE SO CLEAN !' uhh , disturbing siol ! oh ya , go to Nisa's blog for more pics , im v lazy to upload .

and and cousin's movie marathon next Sat over at Kak Itin's place , cant wait :D

Sheesha , Sunday ? Ry's Bday ? i wanna go ~

2009-03-28T12:11:00.003+08:00

& you know no one in the world can love you as much as i do .
i swear i really do .
yeah yeah Ry , im OCD-ing again .
off to Pasir Ris , Abang Zamak's & many many more [quoting Abang Zamak] waiting !
& TODAY IS EARTH DAY ! :D

2009-03-21T01:09:00.004+08:00

Dear Andy ,

I don't really know how to tell you this, im in love with your cat. I think I realized it when i finally changed my underwear at the mental hospital and I saw you pull the clothes off your ‘My Little Pony’ collection. I'm sure you're middle-class enough to understand that I get turned on only by garbage men. I'm returning your toe ring to you, but I'll keep your glass eye as a memory. You should also know that i will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard and you should stop picking your nose.

Best of luck on the sex change ,
Amirah

Here's how you do it:Dear (someone you recently talked to),I don't really know how to tell you this,(1). I think I realized it (2)(3) and I saw you (4)(5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning your (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that (10) and (11).(12),Name

1) What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - I'm in love with your cat
Red - Our affair is over
White - I’m joining the Convent
Black -Our romance is over
Green- Our socks don't match
Grey - You're a leprechaun
Yellow - I'm selling myself for candy
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - Purple hedgehogs want to destroy you
Other -I dislike your eyelashes

2) Which is your birth month?
January - That night you picked your nose
February -When I quoted Forrest Gump
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on peanut butter
May - When I threw up in your sock drawer
June - When you put cuffs on me
July – When I saw the purple monkey
August - When you smacked my ass
September - Last year when you peed your pants
October - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
November - When your dog humped my leg
December - When I finally changed my underwear

3) Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - When we skinny dipped in the bathtub
Chicken- In your car
Pasta - Outside of your office
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad – As you were eating Kraft Dinner
Lasagna - In your closet
Kebab - With Jean Chrétien
Fish - In a clown suitSandwiches - At the Elton John concert
Pizza - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a street lightAnnat- With George Bush and Stephen Harper

4) What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Ignore
Red - Put whipped cream on
Black - Hit on
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - bit of
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the pants off of
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive over

5) What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My boyfriend
White - My father
Grey – The Catholic Priest
Brown – The Montreal Canadian’s goalie
Purple - My corned beef hash
Red – My knee caps
Blue - My salt-beef bucket
Yellow - My illegitimate child in Ghana
Orange - My Blink 182 cd
Pink – Your ‘My Little Pony’ collection
Other --The elephant in the corner

6) What do you prefer to watch on TV?
One Tree Hill - Senile
Heroes- Frostbitten
Lost - High
Simpsons- Cowardly
The news - Scarred
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Open
Top Model - Middle-class
Annat -shamed

7) Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful you are
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That I get turned on only by garbage men
Angry - That your smell makes me vomit
Depressed – That we’re related
Excited - That I may pee my pants
Nervous - The middle-east is planning their revenge on - That your Ford sucks
Apathetic - That you need a sex-change
Silly - That I'm allergic to your earlobes
Cuddly - That Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed - That there is no solution to you being a dumb kid
Other - That your driving sucks

8) What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your toe ring
Yellow - Your love letters to me
Red - The pictures from Vegas
Black - Your pet rock
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - Your car
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your nose hair clippers
Grey - Our matching snoopy underwear
Purple - Your old New Kids on the Block blanket
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your Hannah Montana underwear

9) The first letter of your first name?
A/B - My virginity
C/D - Your photo with the moustache drawn on it
E/F - Your neighbors dog
G/H - The oil tank from your car
I/J - Your left ear
K/L - The results of that blood-sample
M/N - Your glass eye
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X – Your sucide note
Y/Z - Your credit cards

10) The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Love your sweet, sweet ass
C/D - Always will remember the pep talks
E/F -Never will forget that night
G/H – Will not tell the authorites that you stole the whale from the backyard.
I/J – Mocked you behind your back constantly
K/L - Hate your cooking
M/N - Told in my confession today about the moose poaching
O/P - Told my psychiatrist about the bruises
Q/R - Always wanted to break your legs
S/T - Get sick when I think of your feet
U/V - Will try to forget that you broke my heart
W/X - Haven’t showered in a month
Y/Z – am better off without you

11) What do you prefer to drink?
Wine- Our friendship is ruined
Soft drink – I’m off to lead a new life as a lemon
Soda – I will haunt you when I’m reincarnated as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building is on fire
Water – I'm scratching my butt as you read this
Cider– I have a passionate interest for mice
Juice – You ruined my attempts at another world
Mineral/Vitamin water – You should get that embarrassing rash checked
Hot chocolate – Your Cucumber-fetishism is weird
Whiskey - I love Oprah Winfrey
Beer – Thanks for the Cocaine
Other – you should stop picking your nose

12) To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand – Warm tingly sensations
Australia - Best of luck on the sex change
France - Love always
Spain - With tears of sadness
China – You make me sick
Germany – Please don’t hurt me
Japan - Go milk a cow
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
USA - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt – Kiss my butt
England - Go drown yourself

I SWEAR I WAS ROFLMAO-ING WHEN I SAW THIS ON AIDAH'S BLOG !
sorry ah , copy-paste , damn funny ! :D

2009-03-20T02:03:00.002+08:00

hello . Boyfie is very sweet , dont be a kaypochee and ask me why okie :D yesterday which was the 19th , i was suppose to wake up very early to meet WEE-ANNE (Shai's voice) to pass the shared diary to her , but i woke up late around 2pm , was too tired going crazy with boyfie the day bfore i guess , hahahaha ! so i ended up going down to Capitol to pass the book to Wee-ANNE bfore class , but she wasn't there grr . so passed it to Lina :D i couldnt get my special Athirah watch cause its with Wee-ANNE , erms i want my Athirah watch ! so went to YCK after that and headed to cheers to get a drink , and i saw this whole group of NCC guys , was reading their school tag on their uniform , 'Unity , blablabla , Serangoon !' look up , saw Fadhil . didnt see him for a long time , cause i graduated . of all places , Yck lol . then headed to class , and i love Mr Anthony Chen okie , he make maths easy , things i cant do last year , i can do now :D weee ! went home after that , and the bus ride home isnt fun serious , the bangla beside me was holding on to the handle bar above my head , and yes im short but not that short , so i couldnt move my head up and that sucks . other than that , you should understand why i feel nauseous . im very worried now . aiyaa , hope nothing happens when im sleeping . i reallie pray if im a parent one day , i wont be crazy , atleast not very crazy , crazy is fine , but not very crazy , aiyerr , i dont want to be the kind of parent who drive their kids crazy like how im gonna go crazy . aiyerrr . and Naufal is freaking me out , seriously big time .

2009-03-18T01:50:00.004+08:00

16 March ; SHEEEEEESHAAAA :D

didnt have so much fun for such a long time already . haha , no we [Shai , Sak , Lina , Ry & Me] didnt go out and run around or anything , we just sat down for 4hours in the sheesha shop and talk , and play the classic truth or dare game , and the Murderer-Police-Civilians game Shai intro-ed . and we were busy sharing secrets too , which just somehow shows me i got a group of friends to rely on , not saying that i dont before , but we're close like what Abang Mimi called us , Blood Sisters :D which i found amusing at first . he even ask me if im in a gang T.T

lol , i didnt get cranky at all just now at work , which is a miracle . and no food jams too ! and Aslam was like freaking out cause blood keep flowing out of my finger . Ry licked my blood , cause she didnt know it was blood cause i was asking her whether its blood or rose syrup . lol ! Abang Mimi said we proved his point bout us being blood sisters T.T and i went around the restaurant making people kiss my 'booboo' so it'll get better ! lol . Abang Mimi's letter in our shared diary really made me think , i dont know why . hms , he wanna join our gang [WTFCUK ?!] , and what he said and asked during break is idk , disturbing ? erm , whatever . i wanna go write in the diary now :D

Musical Night , Dayang Qirana loves :D

2009-03-14T19:32:00.006+08:00

'STUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK !~'
seriously , i thought Siew Chin (sp?) was mute until i heard the first word that came out of her mouth . i swear she's freaking fun to hang out with ! yay Joe the Pussy [hahahaha !] has a fun girlfriend , for Ami to make monkey-faces with . and yay , finally got to meet up with Farah & Sufyan besteh ! :Dmiss them like freaking ouh so much lah , get to hug both of them also .

'YAYANNNN ! MEERAAAAA !
*hugs hugs hugs*

Meera ? do i smell ?

*sniff sniff* NO ! '
that was seriously what Sufyan asked me okeh . and i miss him like seriously very much , thats why i keep hugging him everytime i saw him yest . hahahas . hms , Yan ! you owe me a date to school to collect testimonial okeh , dont forget ! and you need to give me tics if you decide to join dance :D and hms , talking bout dance , my DQ juniors were all great and very pretty in pink and blue and all the hair and makeup yest ! me , Kak Ati and Syak was like ooooh-ing & ahh-ing and going awwww cause we're so happy watching them . other than that , it was damn obvious that all of us miss dancing with them in school , Abang Izwan and his friend was seriously funny seh . 'Colour sundal ah minah !' hahahas , and lensless specs ! 'Kipas Bugis' , 'Buat O Level , kertas terbang-terbang !' all . damn funny , but i didnt manage to snap any pics , cause i ran off to look for Ry after that . hahas . & awww , i cant wait to go out with the 4 lovely ladies [S2L2R!] from work :D AND HILMI IS FREAKING CUTE ! cuter than Hafiz ah too bad !
OMG ! i found the dance video in Kak Ati's blog !! :DDDDD

2009-03-13T00:08:00.003+08:00

i love Boyfie :D
why ? cause he bought New Moon for me !
yay Boyfie ~ *big big hugs*
& yayyyye ! Musical Night tmr , finally get to see the DQs ayye ?
and maybe get my hands on my testimonial if the office is still open tmr , i miss school !
cant wait cant wait cant wait .
and i wanna see the notebook , Ryyyyy i wanna see the notebook !
lol , awkward conversations lalala ~
i miss Boyfie badly seh aww .

2009-03-10T01:32:00.004+08:00

if we're gonna write a book on the conversations we have in the train after work in public , we'll most prob name it Awkward Conversations , cause the conversations we have in the train in public is awkward . very awkward , not only awkward , but loud :D the kinda loud where the whole cabin can hear and figure out what we're talking about , which is embarassing and awkward . haha , awkward . lol . whats happening to the girls nowadays . not women ah , GIRLS ! lol . young teen girls . heh . bleah , my stupid meds that i spend $40 on , doesnt have an effect on me , unless ure talking bout the making-me-drowsy-effect , uhh ! i wanna get better , hello meddies ! make me feel better ! i dont like feeling cranky and tired and moody and weak D: ugh , i miss boyfie ! i wanna collect my testimonial :D

2009-03-08T22:18:00.006+08:00

uh , rmb how i mentioned in the previous post that i'll got get New Moon the next time i pass by a bookstore ? i went to Popular just now to get textbooks and guidebooks for my private classes , and i was whining to Ibu to get it for me . but , Ibu didnt get it for me lah , no surprise . i was by the shelf whining , and Ibu had to pull me out of Popular . i wanted to get it myself , budden considering that i'll finish reading the book within 2 days , and being me i know i'll be itching to read Eclipse nxt , i rather wait till money drop from the sky so i can buy all the 3 books at once , then i dont have to worry bout not having anything to read . im suffering from a heartache ! i want New Moon , im itching for it . seriously . give me a week , i'll get over this twilight saga craze , hopefully . i want New Moon , and Eclipse and Breaking Dawn . oh why did i get Twilight at the first place !, grr !

OH YA ! HAPPY 1ST BITHDAY EMMALYNN :D
cute cute Emma ! Ry , i honestly wanted to kidnap her just now , shh !

2009-03-08T04:11:00.002+08:00

hello , i finally went to the doctor's today , cause my throat hurt even worst when i woke up today . and the doctor surprised me when she held up some thermometer thingy and scanned my forehead and told me i had fever lol . i know technology and medicine's like damn advance but i didnt know that its VERY advance lol . and the doctor had kinda the disgusted/worried look when she told me i had tonsil inflammation , ugh duh ryte ? i told her my throat's been like that since Monday . lol . and antibiotics really works , my throat's much better now . and even though i slept through most of today , i managed to finish Twilight . seriously , the book is way better than the movie . im so gonna get New Moon the nxt time i past by a bookstore . & ooo , cant wait for the movie also . im suppose to take my medication around now , but i cant find food , and im not suppose to eat my meds when my tummy's empty . eh , should i skip medication ? lol . omg omg i just realised that just now was the 2nd time i went to the doctor's alone w/o Ibu ! Yay me or what ? hahaha .
bye .

2009-03-05T10:12:00.002+08:00

hello you , i dont give a fcuk anymore okay :D
u can quarrel all you want with whoever , cause thats the only thing the both of you do anyway .
so i dont mind being the reason why ure quarelling once in a while cause it doesnt make any difference anyway . and at least at the same time , it shows me that i still matter ,
and that i still exist and still very important to you . other than that , u can do whatever u like ,
cause like i said , i dont care anymore , really .

2009-02-28T15:02:00.005+08:00

KAIT :D ^^^^
awww , see how adorable she is .
and see the bottle shes holding , see the long straw , she said its a fan and she folded it for me .
so cute :D

sometimes i wish im not the only daughter in the family ,
because i have absolutely nothing to do and nobody to talk to at home .
and imagine being screamed at when you didnt even do anything ,
and by a younger brother at that .
and being me , i burst into tears cause i hate & i cant stand being screamed at .
eh cheebye ah , im ure older sister u know ,
wheres ure basic respect for me ? its not like as if i treat you badly or anything .
and this is not the first time okay . damn pissed ah .
its no wonder i hate staying at home .

& theres no tuition today . so im bored .
Ibu wanna go Popular to get books for me T.T

wanna pester her to get Twilight for me , weee ~
i miss boyfie , badly . ehhh .

2009-02-26T23:57:00.006+08:00

there Diana , i did cut my hair two mnths ago , and its shorter than the previous length .but its not shoulder-length short . hehs . Fahmi told me my hair looks nicer short when i showed him the picture in my previous post . but then i told him Ayah dont like my hair short , so i cant cut it short , and he said this , 'Boleh per ! Aku bapak kau per sekarang , pgie gunting pendek !' lol or what ? / 'can what ! im ure dad now , go cut ure hair short now !'thats how lame my brother can get ah . and i was damn bloody pissed just now okay , and i end up not going to class . Yayan says he's lonely cause he's single , and he say JC life is stressful ! hahaha , Boo Yayan Boo ! and Daniel's asking me bout the havaianas flip-flop , which clearly tempts me to get a pair for myself cause Ayah didnt allow me to get a pair for myself last year . ooo , im thinking of splurging again . nooo ! and sweet per Dan , he wants to buy it for a 'special friend' , pheeweet ! Dan Dan ! get a pair for me too ! hahas , no shame ! and i miss my 4ED classmates , can someone organise something ? ISH ISH ! ORGANISE SOMETHING ! i miss Renny ~ AND THERES MUSICAL NIGHT THIS YEAR ! im soooo going okie . can FINALLY meet my cute cute DQ juniors :D & most importantly FARAH ! i feel like pulling my extensions out , dont know why . and i wanna meet Kait-Kait ! super adorable Kait , cute cute Kait cause i miss Kait-Kait !
RYY ! I MISS URE ADORABLE SISTER !

lol , okay bye :D
& I MISS BOYFIE BADLY ! :C

2009-02-26T00:03:00.004+08:00

AHHH ! HELLO RYYYY ?!

I FOUND MY SPECS ; LALALA ~

it was on my table all along , i guess im too blind i couldnt see it .

AHHH ! HELLO AMIR TWINNEY ?! SLAP DIANA !

cause she doesnt know how to answer one of the questions in the facebook boyfriend survey . and like what she said , you should slap her cause both of you are like tgther for one year oready . haha ! and Diana i want my Caramel Frappe okay ! u work at Coffee Bean also no use ,

if you cant give ure cute friend down here free Caramel Frappe ! hahaha .
lol , im talking as if Diana owns Coffee Bean .
i went to Capitol to meet Boyfie bfore class just now , but i swear i miss him badly now . and i know Boyfie misses me too , ryte ryte ? hahaha !

i travelled all the way to Yew Tee today for class , the trip down there was a drag , i could have fall asleep if not for the guy who was sitting beside me , his laptop bag keep poking my elbows okie ! and the girl beside me practically had her bagpack on my lap , pfft , i was seriously annoyed haha . lessons was boring also , the teacher start all the way from chapter one , which is like super basic , the basic stuffs i think i can answer without referring to textbook , chey action seh , and i almost died out of boredom . the teacher can even ask whether we know how to light a bunsen burner , lol ? but yay , classes ended one and half hours early , and i get to go back home earlier . i still have lessons tmr at YCK Sec .

and im looking forward to the picnic on Saturday , if its not cancelled again . i wanna watch Slumdog Millionaire , im gonna make Kak Itin pass the cd to me on Saturday ,cause she promised me ! heh .

hahaha , when Ry told me the only condition Colin SANTA MARIA ; oh hail the holy virgin Mary ! state when he ask Ry , Cassie & Me out for a camwhoring session when Cassie comes back , i swear i burst out laughing in the train , like major HAHAHAHAHAHA ! like lol wtfcuk ? rmb Col , u owe me starbucks ! and im gonna steal ure camera away from you ! weee ~
& the LJS guy damn perasan i tell you . Sak ! hes damn perasan !! eww , you want our number ? quotes Ry , 'this is a toll-free number , but i swear its my hp number , 1800-Suck-My-Balls ! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA !'
erms , i think i should end it here , bye .
THE LJS GUY DAMN PERASAN ! eww .

2009-02-25T00:21:00.002+08:00

Abang Zamaksyari :D ^^^

i sat and rot at home today , boo . and i have fever , and my throat fcuking hurts .
i miss my boyfie alot D:
& oops , Deeyanna tagged me at Facebook for some survey on how well we know our boyfriends , and i cant even answer one question , Boyfie slap me !
and i want to see ure hair *whines*
hms , shall go disturb Alex now , bye .

2009-02-23T15:45:00.002+08:00

i tell you , this fcuking headache is killing me .

i wanna go back to bed , and maybe go meet Gee to pass a thousand splendid suns back when i wake up later . i tell you Gee would be bloody pissed with me , take my own sweet time .

ooo , i found the kite runner ! gonna re-read again soon . & my heart ache like bloody hell , Ibu let me go out today , but im lazy to go out , nye nye nye . ugh , my class starting this Wedns , cheebye ! and i dont want Meera to go back Nepal , gonna find a way to meet her bfore the 25th ,
which is her last day at work ? i think .

boo , im off to lala-land .

toodles *flips hair* ew , mcm bimbo .

2009-02-23T01:06:00.005+08:00

im still awake ,
so Happy Birthday to dearest Boyfie :D ,
Farid and Uncle Noordin :D
you people are getting so so very old .
:D im gonna try to go sleep now .

& oooo , Yayan said he misses me :D

2009-02-22T22:15:00.005+08:00

hoho helloooooo , i love the view from boyfie's room ! :D
im feeling random siolx !, so that explains the random remark .
& im gonna start learning how to play the guitar on my own .
since bro totally forgot he has a guitar which Mum spend a bomb on [she could have gotten me something with that money okeh !] , im gonna steal it and learn how to play ! RYYYY ! teach mehhhh :D
after that i'll get Ry/Alex to teach me how to play the piano , woohooo ~
i clean out my cupboard today and threw away almost everything in it . so now , i have no fear of books dropping on my head whenever i need to get something from the cupboard . nyenyenye !
i feel cleaner now , need to clear things off my study table , and fold the 2 basket of my clothes , and my room will be super clean !
; for only two days . yay , clean room for two days .
eh , i miss Sara .
:D

2009-02-22T15:47:00.003+08:00

theres only so much a 16-year old can take .
and i guess its a miracle im still here .